Starting back up again...

Well trying very hard to get back in the swing of things. Looking for some cheap (as in inexpensive) Gonal F since it appears we are going to be using a pretty high dose at 900iu's for 11 days. Trying to figure out the days that will work out best for us to travel after Gerry returns from Texas. Just simply trying to get my head in the game again. I have to apply for my U.S passport now and then reapply for my Indian travel visa, talk to my boss about time off, find medications and set up ultrasound dates, pick a new surrogate, coordinate with the Docs....

UGH... I need to slow down take a deep breathe and believe it will all be okay.

They call me, 'Princess Red, White and Blue'.

Yep, its official the Canadian girl finally became a full fledged American as of Thursday May 22nd. At work they had a surprise celebration for me and I walked into a fully decorated office. What a wonderful welcome at my new job!

Had a great long Memorial Weekend, as Gerry was able to make it home for a short but sweet 2 days. We went tubing along the Salt River and just enjoyed some quality time together. It was SO awesome to see him and we both agreed that 'absence does make the heart grow fonder'. We are still trying to figure out how we did it for 10 long months when he was serving in the war in 2004??? Apparently we are both getting sentimental in our old age as it is definitely harder being separated now then it was back then. Without sounding too corny; we both agreed we have fell more deeply in love over the years and hate to be separated! Frankie was so very excited to see him, her tail went in circles over and over again.

We have been in constant contact with both the Docs and they have recently graciously asked us to be a spokes person for them on their new blog for Surrogacyindia: www.surrogacyindias.blogspot.com I am honored to be even asked to do this for them both and hope to do them and the company justice. We have already referred a few couples to them and hope their experience is as wonderful as our was.

We are still seriously looking into returning to India in late August for a second go around. The Docs are currently in talks about our options to hopefully increase our odds and make it a happy ending.

Random Photos of India

Riding in the Rickshaw in Mumbai (video)

Happy Mother's Day!

My Amazing Mom (and Dad too)!!!Mother-in -Law extraordinaire!My beautiful step-girls! I can't forget my girl!!!Thought today would be tougher then it is, but I am staying strong and moving forward. I received an absolutely wonderful e-mail from my step daughter Kristin and a e-card from my Frankie girl (with a little help from Daddy).

I am more determined then ever to become a Mother. How it happens, at this point I don't really care, I just know I am not willing to accept the fact that I will be without a baby of my own. Surrogacy, natural or adoption... I will have my child someday! I can't imagine a life without raising children and so I know that this dream will be a reality some day. Hopefully sooner then later, but I will be patient and believe and continue to pray and hope for our dream to come true.

I have 2 exceptional Mother's in Canada as great role models and I want them to see what I have learned from them.

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's and Mom's to be (like me)!