Friday, September 28, 2012
"I Will Be A Wonderful Mother" - Author Unknown
There are women who become mothers without effort,
without patience or loss,
and though they are good mothers and love their children,
I know that I will be better.
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited.
I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore, and discover.
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.
My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.
I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend, and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment, as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell that many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort.
I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth when life is beyond hard.
I have learned a compassion that only comes by walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.
Monday, September 24, 2012
Monday, September 17, 2012
Our last, but most certainly not least, update is our youngest and brightest, Jett. Still our sensitive, shy child, he gets his feelings hurt so easily and is scared of loud or foreign things and noises. I am pretty sure he will end up being a little scrapper though, if his brother and sister don't stop taking his toys from right under his nose. He is just now learning to fight back and although he cries, he gets a good swat or two in first. He will certainly melt your heart with those big brown eyes. His eyes twinkle when he smiles and he is sure to light up the entire room. He takes a few minutes to warm up to you, looking like he is almost on the verge of tears while he takes you in. He hasn't been a fan of men (with the exception of Daddy) and just now has begun to overcome the bottom lip out quivering cry if you so much as look his way. Women have had a much easier time...another ladies man just like his big brother.
|One year old...already!|
|Is this really the same little boy?|
Once he started to crawl there was NO turning back. He took off full throttle and disappears in a blink of an eye. He has quickly inherited the new nickname 'Dozer' as he is like a little bulldozer when he wants something. He puts his head down and goes full force and will barrel down anything in his path to get to it. He has the body of a baby football player. We have decided that he will be our contact sports athlete. :)
|Love those eyes.|
|I don't wanna have a birthday!|
He has been the 'first' twin to do most things and blazes the trail for his sister. Talking, crawling, eating and most recently walking. He took his first couple of steps and that was it, he had the hang of it and was taking steps every chance he got. Now he is walking long distances with confidence and just tonight Dylan took her first steps. We are in SO much trouble now!
|Up to NO good!|
His favorite pastime is playing Smash Up Derby with his siblings. He was getting jealous of Dylan's walker and although they were both not far off from taking their first steps we cracked and got him a walker too. With Blaze in his car and the twins in their walkers, no one is safe! Neyla even knows to run for cover. They zoom about banging into each other and everyone, but manage to maneuver the corners with ease, going in reverse and sideways they amaze us with their walker skills!
|The last 'D' in DAD for Father's Day|
His hair has grown back in and he has little curls out each side of his head. I look at him and almost daily remember back at what a sick tiny baby he was and I am in awe with how he has become such a happy and healthy little fella. He absolutely loves Nick Jr and Disney Jr. and its a major chore to try and pry his eyes off of the TV when Story Time is on.
|Such a sick little man. :(|
Jett is a great eater, although both the twins seem to have the sensitive gag reflex like their older brother did, and so transitioning to solids has proven somewhat of a challenge. They are just now able to tolerate scrambled eggs, mashed potatoes, pancakes and any sort of textured foods. Gerber Puffs don't last long in this house. They both go through a container in a matter of days. However, the switch from Similac Sensitive Formula to whole milk was a success at around 11 months for both babies with not even so much as a hiccup.
|How can we separate such cuteness!|
|Love saying, 'Good night to Baba!'|
|Gosh I LOVE this kid!!!!|
He will always be my little FIGHTER and is such a joy to be around. He has become quite a Mommy's boy. He loves (and of course Mommy too) running full force into my arms and burying his head into my chest with a little giggle. I am loving being a Momma and can't imagine my life without my 3 sweet little Angels. Life is
Friday, August 31, 2012
My beautiful, beautiful girl! I must admit I LOVE having a little girl. I see the Daddy-son things Blaze does and I cant wait to have Mommy-daughter days like, visiting the salon for little finger nail painting days, clothes shopping and lots and lots of girly stuff with Dylan.
|One short year ago...|
|Happy 1st Birthday Princess|
|Love this face!|
|Snaggle Tooth Girl|
She absolutely loves both of her 'Ba ba's' (brothers) and crawls along behind them trying with all her might to keep up. Although a little slower, we are pretty certain it wont be long before she is leading the pack. She has been a little slower at 'baby firsts' then her little twin brother Jett but, her slow & steady attitude has made her a quick learner. She crawled about 2 weeks later then Jett taking her cautious time. Jett took his first steps just the other night and she is definitely ready but would prefer to get down and crawl still till she is certain she has this balance thing down pat. She is definitely more consistent and repetitious in her speech and she can say, 'Mama', ' Dada' , ' Nana '(Nanny), 'Baba', 'Hi', 'Hi Mama' & 'Hi Dada', and most recently, 'Dawwwgg' (dog).
HAIR!!!! Oh that hair! Dylan's bedhead hair has become some of my Facebook friends favorite photos. She has not lost one bit of it from the day she was born. I truly think it's the one big thing about Dylan. I am enjoying buying bows and trying hard to teach Daddy how to put in a pony tail.
Dylan absolutely LOVES to dance. She shakes her shoulders and bounces up and down whenever she hears music. She most definitely will be our little ballerina, as she already does the most perfect arabesque and loves to be on her tippy toes. :) She can clap, and wave with an open hand and with a cute little open and closed fist as soon as she hears "hi" or "bye.".
She remains as petite as ever, and its funny to dress her in her 0-3 mth clothes at 13 mths, sometimes I think I am dressing a little doll. She still could pass for 3 months old, and so many people comment that she is SO much smaller in person then her pictures. I have deemed her my tiny, beautiful Indian Princess.
|My girl the 'A' in DAD for Father's Day|
We are so thankful for our amazing little girl and can't wait to see what the future holds for this ballerina-scientist-tenacious Diva.