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BEWARE PUPPY WE KNOW WHERE YOUR DADDIES ARE!!!!!

We give thanks...

Today we celebrated our Thanksgiving as both Gerry and I worked yesterday. Mom and Dad came and we had a nice quiet day with lots of great food and rest. We even had our very own American Indian Girl with us for the meal (Okay so maybe it was just Frankie dressed up for the holiday). We ate till we couldn't eat anymore and we gave thanks.
Thanks that Dad is here with us after our huge medical scare with him this past year. Thanks that we have one another to share this day with and are blessed to have a table full of food. Thanks that all of our dear friends in India, Docs, medical team, Surrogates, Egg Donors and Henry and family are safe and well. Thanks that we live in a country where we do not have to face terrorism and fear for our safety every day we step outside. Thanks for our friends and family who have shown support and love through our long and difficult journey. Thanks that we are not in Mumbai at this time as I know my husband, being a firefighter and military guy would have been wanting to do anything he could do to help whether it meant putting him in harms way or not. The list of things we are grateful for is endless and I could write for days.

3 of our Support Group members who just got back from India received the wonderful news they are pregnant and we couldn't be happier for them. We are truly hoping that this is an amazing year ahead for all and for us, that we will be holding our beautiful child in our arms at long last.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Mumbai under attack!

Beautiful Taj Hotel Sept. 9th, 2008



Terrorists have attacked Mumbai!

Just got off the phone with both Docs, both them and their families are safe at home. Not such a fun Birthday for our dear Dr.Yash, but she is home with her dear beautiful daughter and resting. So sad to see photos of the gorgeous historic Taj up in smoke. Just seems like yesterday we were taking our carriage ride together just outside on those very streets. We wish all of our extended SI family (surro's, egg donors and our dear Mansi and entire medical team) peace and safety in this very sad and terrible time. Us American's feel the pain of terrorists invading your home and only hope this passes swiftly and the pain subsides.

Sending much love to our home away from home, Mumbai.

As promised...Our Weekend Get-away photos.

PINETOP, ARIZONA

The Christmas crunch is on!!!!

Gerry and I finally got some time to spend together and regroup and prepare for the holidays. After weeks of hard work, Mom and Dad's place is finally all done and it looks amazing. They are so happy with the results and can't thank Gerry enough for all his help.

Yesterday we had a 'date day' and it was so much fun. We spent the day at Arizona Mills (a huge outlet mall) shopping for Christmas gifts and even took some time out to see the movie Role Models. It was an amazing day just sharing and laughing and bonding. WE REALLY NEEDED IT! We got gifts for our surrogate and her family, for our great Docs and for our family and friends here in the U.S. All in all, it was a very productive day. We are certainly down to the crunch as it will take a few weeks to get it all together and mail it off to India in time for Christmas.

Let's hope we can do it!

Our surrogate is AWESOME...

We received a wonderful and much needed surprise, an unexpected email from the Docs the other day. They were trying to send it for a few days but couldn't get the attachment to stick. Well, it was certainly worth the wait. A beautiful video of Rekha, our surrogate. She was trying very hard to speak English with Dr. Yash's help and giggling with embarrassment as she concentrates on each of her spoken words. She tells us she misses us and hopes we have a wonderful Christmas and the most endearing of all, that she will do everything in her power and take all the precautions to ensure we have a pregnancy this time as she is certain we will be successful.

It brought such a big smile to both of our faces and truly made our day.

Why God created woman...

Feeling very sad and finding it difficult to really get into this next cycle of ours. Looks like it won't be now till closer to Christmas. We feel so out of touch. We aren't there in India this time and all we can do is sit and wait and wonder... Last 2 times we felt as though we had a part, taking shots and the long flight and being there for the whole thing, beginning to end. This time is so much different.

I am finding it very hard to be an active part of the support group. I am so happy to hear others excitement and anticipation of their results and upcoming cycles and positive pregnancies, but overwhelmed with sadness for us. We still don't know why we failed? What went wrong? Why others like us get positives and we continue to keep getting negatives? I am trying to be strong, but part of me wonders if I am the right person to even think of giving anyone of these people hope or advice in this area, especially being the Moderator of the support group forum???

I am trying to stay positive and hopeful, but this stuff really wears on a person. I never imagined growing up that I would ever have this much trouble trying to have a family. Oh to be young again in the back of Mom and Dad's car! Infertility is such a sad and lonely place. Of the simplest terms, I am a woman who was put on this earth to procreate. What use are we if we can't do this simple task? What purpose does a woman have other then to be a mother and raise children? I know I would make a terrible woman's rights activist. But ever since I was a little girl, all i ever wanted was to grow up, marry a wonderful man, have a nice home with a white picket fence and be a MOM. I would trade everything in tomorrow (my career, my possessions, everything) for this one wish. IT SHOULDN'T BE THIS HARD OR PAINFUL TO HAVE A CHILD!!!!

Will I ever get my happy ending?

I am American...

Today was a momentus day for America and for me. I participated in my first election as a citizen of the United States. Those who have followed my blog know that early this year I recieved my American citizenship. I am proud to belong to this country but never forget my Canadian roots. I for one am very proud to be from Canada and will always consider myself a dual citizen of both countries. I am not going to tell you who I voted for, just that I am very proud of my husband who serves as a soldier for the American AirForce and support all of our wonderful men and woman who fight for our freedom. Whoever becomes our new president, I only hope they take care of all of our military troops here in the U.S and over seas.

God Bless the U.S.A.

No matter how old we get, we still need Mommy and Daddy.

Mom and Dad arrived safely yesterday and we were busy bees from he moment their plane landed. Funny thing happened at the airport. A bunch of people from Gerry's Air Force base were there in uniform and we found out that his base Commander was arriving from Afghanistan on the same flight as the folks. So, we teased Gerry he was under dressed for their arrival. We headed to their trailer and started work on it. They bought it literally days before they left for home last year and so we had lots of work to do to make it their own. We've got quite a bit of work ahead of us, but it will be a great little home-away-from-home place for them while they snow-bird here in AZ with us. We are thrilled they are here again and each year that passes we convince them to stay a little bit longer. But no one is more thrilled then Frankie!!!

People who don't even know you???

Why do people make anonymous comments on blogs when it is on stuff they know nothing about??? They make it seem like you are a terrible person for sharing your feelings. They judge you without knowing the whole story (or even a small bit of the story).

Anyone wishing to make comments on our blog please sign your name, nothing is more frustrating for someone to take the time and effort to share, pour out their feeling and really put themselves out there for the world to see only to have someone bash them and be cowardly about it.

If you want your comments posted then you will all have to put yourself out there just as we have so generously done so.

For the person you seems to 'know me so well'. For the record...Have I been selfish and consumed in my journey?...ABSOLUTELY! But, I have NEVER forgot any one of my friends or family during this time, in fact, it has been just the opposite. When you can really use someone to lean on and they abandon you in your toughest of times because they are wrapped up in there own lives and what is important to them...then you can only question the true meaning of friendship. For me, friendship is a 2 way street, if you are there when they need you most, they should only return the favor.

You don't have to agree with either of our opinions or what we have to say, but be kind enough to sign your name. Thanks,