I have the most AMAZING husband!

Gerry was home for a short but sweet visit. We JUST spent time together, nothing fancy or unique or planned just TOGETHER.

We visited one of our local Indian Tandoori Restaurants with our friends Mel and Brijesh. Gerry was so proud of himself when he ordered from the menu for everyone. We called and spoke with the Docs and it all seemed so exciting to think of our upcoming trip back to India.

A long standing joke between us is that Gerry being the 'I work with my hands man' he is, doesn't wear his wedding ring very often. So, I tend to tease him and give him a hard time every now and then. For years he has told me he was going to tattoo his ring finger. When he arrived home he surprised me with the most thoughtful, loving thing he has ever done. I thought he would always just get a simple band to signify our marriage but, instead he did so much more. He had a Celtic Love Knot which symbolizes never-ending love. It represents infinity and everlasting love. There is no end and no beginning, only true love, binding together two souls. I was beyond touched with his love and compassion. Once again after almost 10 years together, I realized that I fall more in love with Gerry every single day.

By far a fabulous weekend with the man I love!

Feeling real...again!

Well, today we received our first doses of Gonal F. Its feels like the first step to starting the crazy journey all over again. I am scared and excited and nervous and anxious all at the same time. Again...a whirlwind of emotions! I don't know if its easier or not the second time around, but we are soon to find out. Its been difficult making plans long distance between India, Arizona and Texas. It will be great to have Gerry home this weekend so we can do some 'India' planning together, not to mention some MUCH needed alone time.

I have been keeping up with Lisa and Bob's BLOG and feel so connected to them as we were there their first go around. It makes me feel so good inside to read about their journey and what great treatment she is getting from the Docs. You can only say things and hope for the best, but until you actually get to meet them both in person then you truly see exactly what we have said about them. Plain and simple they are AMAZING individuals through and through. We are saying tons of prayers for Lisa and Bob and hoping this will be the blessing they have been working so hard for.

The Surrogacy Support Group is going great! So many views and people joining from all over the world to share their stories, learn and give support. Many individuals saying that our BLOG has been very inspirational for them. I only wished I could open up my heart and life to those wondering and experiencing their own surrogacy journey and just maybe shed a little light and hope their way. The feedback I have received is more then I could ever have imagined and not at all what I expected. What a wonderful feeling.!!!

So cheers ya'll to a happy 4th of July and of course I can't forget today, Happy Canada Day for those of us dual citizens!

Ready...Set...Go!!!

Well, here we go again. Just got confirmation from Dr. Yashodhara as to how this cycle will go. When we start our meds., when we go for our ultra sounds and blood work, etc. etc. It's starting to become a reality and August will be here before we know it! We are still searching for our meds. They are gonna cost us a bundle this time. Triple the dose for 11 days (WHOA!) We almost feel like old pros now going to India. It certainly will feel a lot less stressful with all the knowledge we have gained.

Some really exciting news! I added our Surrogacy Support Group
so we can help others and answer some of their questions, share our struggles, hopes and successes.

I think I finally got Gerry to work on some 'tips' for our BLOG for others embarking on their own India adventure's to read. So stay tuned for that.

Some great couples we have met through the common bond of surrogacy are headed to India in the next 2 months to visit our Docs and we wish them the best of luck in their own journeys and hopes for some very happy endings. We send our love and prayers to these very special individuals who have been here for us every step of the way.

Happy Birthday to ME!

Yep, today was the BIG day one year older and my clock is ticking louder then ever....

Actually, I really had a nice Birthday. Frankie woke me up with plenty of kisses (that's the best!) I arrived at work to find my office, yet again full of decorations. I work with some great girls! My cell phone didn't stop ringing all day, from my Sweetheart wanting to be the 1st one to wish me a special day at 0630 (Trust me Honey, you were definitely the 1st! ) to Mom and Dad, to friends in Florida and family in Canada. Then to arrive home from work to many emails, Facebook messages, phone messages and e-cards coming as far away from as India. I barely made it through dinner with Jackie (my BFF) when my phone rang some more.
It truly was a special day and it makes me realize how blessed I am to be surrounded by such wonderful people who fill my life with love, support and pure happiness.

Thank you all, you made my big '38' a day to remember!

Starting back up again...

Well trying very hard to get back in the swing of things. Looking for some cheap (as in inexpensive) Gonal F since it appears we are going to be using a pretty high dose at 900iu's for 11 days. Trying to figure out the days that will work out best for us to travel after Gerry returns from Texas. Just simply trying to get my head in the game again. I have to apply for my U.S passport now and then reapply for my Indian travel visa, talk to my boss about time off, find medications and set up ultrasound dates, pick a new surrogate, coordinate with the Docs....

UGH... I need to slow down take a deep breathe and believe it will all be okay.